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6 October 2008

this morning, i almost cried in front of my students.  it’s been a bit of a rough weekend.  george helped see me through it with kindness and love and food and shopping and even some laughter.  and i was feeling okay this morning until i had to talk to someone about it again right before getting to class.  so i showed up in class a little emotional.  and had to apologize to my students for distributing some information late.  and before i knew it i was tearing up again.  i hate such things.  it’s only happened once before–last spring when i was so sick that i got lightheaded and felt like i was close to passing out while i was teaching.  i don’t mind showing a weakness i can laugh about–like throwing up on the first day of class.  but the other ones–the ones that scare me a bit–those are harder.

after class was over, one of my students asked if she could talk to me apart from the other after-class hangers-on, so i asked her to wait a moment while i answered the others’ questions.  once they’d all left, she surprised me.  instead of asking about our current paper or the homework, she said, “you seem like such a beautiful person.  and i can tell you’re not feeling up to your best.  i’m sorry things are hard right now.”  and she gave me a hug.  if i were feeling particularly cynical, i suppose i could attribute this to brown-nosing.  but her eyes glossed over with tears while she was speaking and i have no doubt it was sincere.  this evening i checked my email only to find a message from another student expressing sympthy.  and i find myself feeling comforted by these simple gestures of kindness and support.

3 Comments leave one →
  1. 7 October 2008 5:46 pm

    Glad you have had good people around to comfort you. I love you!

  2. 17 October 2008 12:58 am

    at times it is hard to see the good in life, and others, but I love you for trying, and for helping me to do so, too. ((hugs))

  3. 3 November 2008 2:18 pm

    I miss your blog. Pls to write? Kthxbye.

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